It’s so hard to let go. I thought I had, but the feelings that came up tonight made me realize that I haven’t. I have to let go for my own sanity,and so I don’t sabotage my future. We all get hurt, but we have to bounce back from it…unless we plan on giving up. And that, simply is NOT an option.
I hate those stupid “Reblog or ____ will die” things. I love my mom with all my heart. We believe in God, not stupidity. My mom will be just fine. We went to church this morning, and the pastor told me to hug my mom. He didn’t say anything about Tumblr. Lol.
My last two “serious” relationships really sucked. One just ended last week. However, we had broken up and gotten back together a few times before. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t like feeling insecure, wondering if he was with someone else, knowing that he was looking for something different. He texted me unexpectedly a couple of days ago. I really think he just wants to control me. He doesn’t even really want to be with me. He tried to act as if he didn’t know I was serious about it being over this time. It was hard at first, but now I feel so FREE.
As much as these relationships have hurt me, I learned some things about myself. I’m stronger, and I’m not afraid to tell people what I don’t like. I will be 28 years old next month. It’s about time for me to grow up. LOL.